For me it's Ani Difranco Untouchable face:


*the link for people who want to hear it as opposed to listening to me type it lol. -------> [link]


i'm going for a walk now
i feel a little unsteady
i don't want nobody to follow me
'cept maybe you
i could make you happy you know
if you weren't already
i could do a lot of things
and i do

tell you the truth i prefer
the worst of you
too bad you had to have a better half
she's not really my type
but i think you two are forever
and i hate to say it but
you're perfect together

so fuck you
and your untouchable face
and fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch
and who am i
i bet you can't even tell me that much

two-thirty in the morning
and my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
a safe haven of sleepless
where the deep fryer's always on
radio is counting down
the top 20 country songs
and out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
y'know, i don't look forward
to seeing you again soon
you'll look like a photograph of yourself
taken from far far away
and i won't know what to do
and i won't know what to say

except fuck you...

i see you and i'm so perplexed
what was i thinking
what will i think of next
where can i hide
in the back room there's a lamp
that hangs over the pool table
and when the fan is on it swings
gently side to side
there's a changing constellation
of balls as we are playing
i see orion and say nothing
the only thing i can think of saying

is fuck you...


So Now that I've bared my soul to you shre with me! No worries! I won't judge or ask questions.....I'm just wondering

"Nothing is original. Steal from anywhere that resonates with inspiration or fuels your imagination. Devour old films, new films, music, books, paintings, photographs, poems, dreams, random conversations, architecture, bridges, street signs, trees, clouds, bodies of water, light and shadows. Select only things to steal from that speak directly to your soul. If you do this, your work (and theft) will be authentic. Authenticity is invaluable; originality is non-existent. And don’t bother concealing your thievery - celebrate it if you feel like it. In any case, always remember what Jean-Luc Godard said: “It’s not where you take things from - it’s where you take them to."
— Jim Jarmusch

*cough cough* Carry on......

Jaden420

So I know that I pretty much went MIA again but with all that I have been dealing with honesly art was the last thing on my mind lol. Jim is doing so much better now, he wasn't himself for quite some time but I think we've cleared the worst and it has made us stronger as a couple. Time and faith are the true healers .

I've been working on a pixel of Sin-D and me for quite some time and it's just about done so probably in the next few days or so I might actually have some art to post.

One last thank you to everyone who has supported me through all this. I love you all and am very greatful for your kind words and thoughts.

I'm currently looking at 110 deviations and 90 messages so it might take me a while to respond and comment but I sware I'll get to it!

Love always
Jaden420

Well, the funeral is finally over with. Jim and I can now try to move on and get on with our lives. He only got two days berivement leave from work witch is bullshit. He won't have another day off until next Wed witch is more bullshit. So....If you hear a Mardens in Ellsworth Maine burned to the ground....you know it was me lol.

I wanted to thank everyone who stopped by my page and left kind words for my boyfriend and I. I was flattered that people I had never met before left me messages of encouragement and it ment the world to me. Too all my friends who have given me constant support (you know who you are!) I love you all and am so blessed to have such wonderful people in my life.

So I'll raise my glass of whiskey to change in all it's forms and to all who have been so kind to me when I needed it most. *cheers*

And now....just for fun....STAMPS!!!! *smooshes stamps in your face*

Yesterday my boyfriend's mother (whom I've known for three years....as long as I've dated my boyfriend duh lol) died in the hospital. She had brain cancer and cought the swine flu and had doubble nomonia in her lungs. Jim, his family, and I were with her when she went but it was the hardest thing I have ever had to watch. Her family is lost without her and there is nothing I can do to remedy the situation. This journal is just a way for me to vent and express my feelings so....this journal is not for the faint of heart.

The funneral isn't until this Wed and Jim has to go back to work on Thursday. It's going to be really hard for him. He's already exhausted and depressed. I had to fight with him just to get him to eat. This is by far the most challanging thing I have ever had to go through and I just hope that I have the strength to get through this and to help Jim get through this.

Sorry for the depressing journal entry but I can't talk to Jim about how I feel (the wound is just too fresh for that) so I'm putting my feelings here.....just so they have somewhere to go.

Thank you to anyone who took the time to read this.

*Jaden420*

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